Not that long ago, I believed that I wasn’t worthy of investing into. I didn’t consciously think that but my behaviour and choices reflected this belief. It was a real oxymoron paradigm for me. On one hand, I rarely chose to invest into myself but on the other hand I must have believed that I was so unique and capable that I didn’t need to. I must have believed that I could grow and function, love and give without ever refilling my own tank – which I can’t. This led to me being disappointed with the state of my relationships and not achieving the results in life that I wanted.
I am not a big fan of New Year’s Resolutions. They just feel like they have so much pressure on them. I understand that some people need or like the pressure but most of us don’t. Many people feel guilty, overwhelmed and unclear about them. According to statistics the 17th of January is the most common date to ditch new year’s resolutions and 80% of new year’s resolutions fail by February.
I love to be in control. I also love to be efficient, organised, informed and good at what I do. The more balls I can juggle, the more exciting and challenging it is. I love finding out how much I can manage…..when it is on my terms. And then I crash, recover and search for the next shiny thing.
As great (or not) as all that was, I guess deep down, I yearned for a real adventure. For an unusual and exciting or daring experience. I didn’t want to just be ‘busy’ and so calculated all the time. However, to me an adventure seemed so out of control, scary, unorganised and often included the risk of failing. Continue reading “Adventures are awaiting….”
No one wants to be described as a quitter, myself included. However, there are some times in life when quitting one thing and changing directions is exactly what you should be doing. If continuing what you are doing is causing you or someone else harm and can be avoided, QUIT!!!
Recently, I participated in a 30km Coastal Trek. I knew that some of it would be on the sand which could cause problems for my chronic illness. I did it anyway with some strategies in place to overcome these challenges. However, I was not prepared for the first 4 hours of the walk to be on soft, shifting sand. It destroyed me. I had never walked this long on the sand before and was unprepared for how my body coped. It didn’t cope well. Continue reading “Is quitting so bad…??”